I met my husband in Sharm 5 years ago, yes he is younger by 10yrs - I fell in love because I loved how openly he spoke about God and I loved God - little did I realise it is used many without thought - however when he swore by Allah and his mother of coarse I believed him - I fell pregnant after a year but prior to this I had found out many lies and the relationship started going downhill. Everything I did was expected not appreciated paying for everything, taking every holiday to be with him and not my son, working 12hour shifts to give him money when he would work 5 or 6 max and smoke hash all through his waking hours. I had read all the stories but believed he was different. I eventually started to only give him enough rope to hang himself, I stopped paying and I stopped going and he never offered any help - after many problems with trust in general and women, I decided to try again last October lo and behold he had been having a 3 month affair and the last affair he begged my forgiveness and I pretended he had it until I was safe in my own country as some Egyptians told me to be very careful of my daughter and not to cause any problems in his home town because I could get killed without anyone ever knowing anything. They were the same people who told me to stop paying for things because he had more than he was saying and if he loved me he would provide for us. However to cut a long story short, I have a daughter who lives with me in the UK we have not returned to Egypt in a year and the truth is, I am to afraid to return due to the many dreadful stories I have read and the rights I could lose due to Egypts judicial system. My husband never supported us or helped with anything towards his daughter- he once told me "that is what the British government are for ......."I have caught him cheating on me several times. After finding naked photographs on his phone of him and another woman on my last visit, I decided I couldn't take anymore - shortly after this my teenage son died, the same boy who watched his mother get destroyed, lied to, and afraid for her life last year. Anyway my dilemma is that since I have not returned and everything in my life is still a mess with my son gone - he is now telling me has changed and loves me etc etc but I think if he loved me, none of his treatment towards me would have ever occurred and people around ME say he just wants his daughter and will go to any lengths as he has done before with swearing by Allah And his mother but in fact it was all blatant lies. I want my daughter to see her father and I want to believe him and forgive him for everything but he is always high, I could lose all rights over her and maybe even risk her getting kidnapped because I have stayed away a year. He has sent some money recently for tickets but that just made me feel worse because why hasn't he ever before ??? I wonder if change is possible.